When I was seventeen, I remember having to go through some of the hardest things I've ever experienced. I literally had one friend, and we were going through a rough patch at the time. I was so lost and confused and, well, hurting.
I remember going to pack away something's that reminded me of someone who was no longer in my life. My friend was over, and I was talking to her as I did it. I'd pick up each item, look at it, and explain what it was and the memories that were tied to it. I didn't make it past two items before I broke. Remembering what happened, actually has me tearing up now. It was so hard for me. I remember staring at a t-shirt that person had given me and my hands started to shake. I looked up at my friend and shattered. I couldn't stop crying. Not pretty crying either. Nope. Full on ugly crying.
My friend stepped forward, wrapping me up in her arms. Then, my mom took the t-shirt from my hands and packed up my things. I still have the box of them, I think. I'm pretty sure it's up in the attic.
But that's not the point I'm making here. This blog is kind of just to really love on my mom. I love her so much and I just can't believe all of the things she done for me, all of the things she's sacrificed for me.
All of this health stuff has been really hard, and stressful and some days I just want to cry. I don't know how my mom does it. I really don't. She comes with me to all of my doctor's appointments because I get too overwhelmed, she helps me figure out my school stuff. I wouldn't be here without her.
You have a mom, but my mom is the absolute best.
Momma and I talk about mostly everything under the sun. She gets me in a way that others don't, and somehow, she always knows how to talk to me. Maybe not always what to say, but what mannerisms to use. Honestly, she's so amazing. She bends over backwards to help me get along in life or ways to make things easier for me. Gosh, she's just... I love her so much I don't have the words to describe it.
And for me to be speechless? It's quite the feat.
I couldn't love my momma more. She doesn't know I'm writing this, and somehow that makes it so much better.
Mom may not always agree with some of the choices I make, but she supports my ability to make them.
My mom has taught me how to be independent and to stand up for myself. She's taught me to do no harm, but to take no crap. She's taught me how to brave. She's taught me how to be strong. She's taught me how to laugh freely and to be happy.
Pardon my French, but my mom is such a badass.
She's totally put together. She's taught me how to take pride in my appearance, and how to stay organized. She's taught me that when plan A doesn't work, there's always plan B.
And, she's taught me that just wants me to be happy. And if being a Walmart greeter is the way to do that, then to be a Walmart greeter. Or, if it's going to medical school. Or, if it's being a teacher. Et cetera.
My mom is the best. She's shown me so many things, and she always has my back. Even if it means she's calling me out on something.
I don't know that I could ever love somebody more. And, I hope if I have a daughter one day, our bond is at least a fraction of what Mom and I have. I can't imagine being in a world without my mom.
When I go kind of crazy, she's right there to temper my insanity. And trust me, it's a hard thing to do.
She loves me in a way no one else can, and I'm so proud of her, and I'm so blessed to have her as a mother. She's my best friend.
Momma, I know you read this. Just know that I love you so much. If I ever turn into a woman like you, or even a fraction of the woman you are, my life will have been a successful one. All of my strength and love, I get from you. I love you so much it's unreal.
With my whole heart,
Written on: November 4th, 2019 at 12:15pm
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